What would you consider to be every woman’s search for meaning? What are we looking for?
I can start off by saying, it can all be so tiring!
This continuous rat race we call life, where we do so much with no results. Many times, I am toiling in my strength even when I know there will be nothing to show for it.
There are days when we may try to make sense of it all, to understand the world as we know it, the different races, religions, cultures and all the little things that make us unique.
Why is it that the good suffer, the wicked live long and lavish their ill-gotten gains? Psalm 73
I believe the world can be a lonely place. Let’s consider this; at any point in time, we are all alone. Even in the midst of family. There will always be those moments when it’s just you and it’s a reminder that at the end of it all, it’s going to be just you.
I often hear people say that we come to this world alone and will leave alone. Yes, it’s true but it’s more than that.
This woman’s search for meaning
As a Christian, there are many questions running through my mind. I love God and will continue to worship and adore him but in addition to this, I do wonder what the sequence is after we leave this world.
Death is a certainty. It is also a leveller. We will all face it at some point or the other. But what happens when we close our eyes never to open them again? I know that our soul leaves the body since the body was created for life on earth Genesis 2:7.
But really, what happens next? I have heard many versions and probably a few inconsistencies on this. Will the soul go to heaven or hell or is there a holding period/place until Jesus comes?
I’m not trying to be morbid, please forgive me. I guess it’s my way of understanding and accepting how transient life is (especially when you lose a loved one).
Over the years, I have learnt to accept that death is a part of living.
These thoughts are more heightened whenever I’m on a plane. I usually consider all the things that could go wrong. The plane could nosedive from the air, hit another plane, crash land and all the other scenarios that I’ve played out at one time or the other.
Thankfully, people seating next to me can’t read my thoughts or I probably would have a ‘no fly’ ban by now.
A reluctance to do more?
So, what is life really? I want to live a fulfilled and purposeful life. At least, that is what I usually tell myself but I must confess that many times I am slow to take the necessary steps.
Is this for lack of clarity? Not every time, but more because I’m scared of what’s at the next bend and sometimes I can’t be bothered to put in the work.
Do you ever feel this way?
It is scary to think of how laid-back we are about living our lives intentionally. It just seems like we just want to get by.
But we have to careful about this and also understand that we can’t do it on our own. We have to accept our true source of strength- God.
God has been very patient with us. That’s the truth.
When I look back on my life, it is clear that I could have done many things better, that the holy spirit was edging me on but I preferred to remain in my safe cocoon rather than flourish.
Is this the same for you?
You probably didn’t want to be noticed, to step outside the box and be open to ridicule and criticism. Of course, we forget that in life, you will be ridiculed and criticised when you do and when you don’t do.
It will never be all sunshine and roses but rather a constant battle to fight and conquer the rough terrains. More so when we choose to stand for righteousness and justice in a largely unfair and hateful world.
A quest to live meaningfully
Do you ever wonder if you have found your place in this world; if you finally understand what you have been sent to do?
I panic at the thought of spending the next 30-40 years just living and barely grasping the magnitude of what is before me. I have shared some of the triumphs and imperfections we have as Christian women. This shows that we are still a work in progress yet…
It would be devastating that after our claim to love, trust and obey God, we don’t follow the path he has set before us or where we do follow, we stop midway and don’t go all the way.
We have to remember that to achieve God\’s purpose for our lives, each day has to be a death to our desires and plans, which are not of him.
We have to say no to every spirit, every action that is not in line with the word of God. We have to accept and work on our weaknesses but not in our power but in his everlasting strength.
This is this woman’s search for meaning and she has been led to this current path. A path of less resistance with her maker.